So, as many of you know, divorce is probably in my near future but I don't know why I cannot commit to it. As I see it, I am not happy, I cannot make him happy, he, it seems is looking for me to make HIM happy ... I CAN make me happy -- what are my options?
I want my life back! I want the control over my property and money without feeling the need to justify decisions -- I want equality and what is just. For any of you who know me, know that this is what defines me as a person and take that away or do something unjust, then watch out!
Further, I'm tired of being a nag and acting like a mother/sister/friend to my husband. That's not what I want and I'm sure that's not what he wants either.
So, why is this so hard? I have no hope for us, only hope for me. Logically, our relationship doesn't make sense. Emotionally, our relationship doesn't make sense. I pray everyday for guidance.
Some day buddy, some day.
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Weird (Not Gross) Things that Happened During Pregnancy
- 1. Increased sense of smell
- 2. Super-moodiness (old Megan times ten.)
- 3. Being hot/warm all the time.
- 4. Not knowing what to eat - Nothing seems like it will satisfy.
- 5. Taking one bite and then saying, "Nope, that wasn't it."
- 6. Hips have gotten wider.
- 7. Dizziness and nausea have finally showed up.
- 8. Crying ... a lot. And, at the littlest things.
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